Monday, February 15, 2010
it's raining

10 more days.

i pray that as important things are being taken away from me one by one this year, that i learn the lessons that im supposed to learn from these. it's really hard and sometimes i just feel so tired and i wish i could hide away from reality cuz it's just so hard to live it, every second of every day. i want the pain to stop and there are so many things that i want but at the same time i know that i cant have them because one of the things i have to learn is patience.

there is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

there are no mistakes in God's plan for everything, and only time will slowly reveal the reason for today's sorrow. so in the meantime i must acquaint myself with patience and faith, so that at the end of the (metaphoric) day the rain will stop, and i'll see the rainbow. (: